August

August 2008 has been the longest month ever. Let me just tell you that I prayed for God's guidance a bunch this month. It has been one of the hardest times emotionally of my sobriety. It's not that the situation has been dire by any means, it's just been very uncomfortable. I was really worried about my finances and thought I'd see about getting a roommate. I put an ad on line and got zero responses for a while and I thought, well that's just God's will right now. Then I got a response and it took a while for her to decide whether she wanted to come live here and I thought, well that's just God's will. Then she moved in and decided two days afterward that it wasn't the right place for her. She paid for the whole month of August, though, and didn't move! I have been so uncomfortable in my own home. I'm pretty sure I haven't slept the whole night through since the beginning of August. It's really beginning to tell on me. God's will apparently isn't always the easier softer path. I'm sure there is a lesson in this for someone. It may not even be me, but I really hope there's something to be learned from this.