Corroding Thread

I have been in a funk for the last couple of days. Yesterday, while talking to my best friend, I tried to identify what it was exactly that was bothering me. I couldn't put my finger on it. If I dig really deep, which I don't want to, it will probably end up being fear. It always is. Fear of what I might not get, fear of what I might lose, fear of the what ifs. There's a line in the Big Book that says fear is an evil and corroding thread; the fabric of our existence is shot through with it. That's me, right now. The BB says to review our fears thoroughly and ask ourselves why we had them. "Isn't it because self-reliance failed us?" I keep going back to God is either everything or God is nothing. What is my choice to be. If I believe God is everything, fear goes away because I KNOW God will take care of my every need. If I let myself begin to believe I have my life under control all on my own, then I begin to get fearful because I know I can't handle it.